Living Up To My Own Expectations

I asked a question on my personal page about how many people believed I would get this done, and how many believe now. I was a bit surprised, because the majority who responded did believe, and do.

This year, though, is about so much more. Make no mistake; this will be the single most difficult thing that I have attempted at this stage in my life. I do not, however, intend it to be my last.

With every step, I grow stronger. With every step, I erase the doubts both of myself and others as I move forward. What once seemed impossible now seems merely difficult.

I wish I could describe the emotional ups and downs to you. It is beautiful, yet terrifying at the same time. It reminds me in many ways of a discussion on meditating, which I don’t do because, frankly, I’m terrified of what I will hear in those quiet moments.

Today we did an evening run. It was short, but I do kind of appreciate my morning runs for the relative coolness (although it has not been cool lately). I did get advice that I am running too fast in my running intervals, so I am going to have to discipline myself and slow those down. I don’t expect to get it all right, not this soon, but it is helpful to know where I need to adjust.

But I am going forward. I am sitting only 40 pounds overweight, and have seen so much change in the past year. I am looking forward to this chapter in the journey!


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